The tragic suicide death of 22-year-old rapper Freddy E is doubly heartbreaking when you read his final tweets — which spiral through despair right up to the moment he pulled the trigger.
Frederick Eugene Buhl was found dead Saturday of a gunshot wound in his apartment near Seattle. Known for his Jerk TV Youtube channel (above), the rapper was reeling from his breakup with girlfriend Honey Cocaine.
Below are the tweets from his final hours of life.
On the way to his birthday party ...
Oh yes. RT @_mellyymel: @freddy_e 's birthday bash!!! twitter.com/_mellyymel/sta…
— Freddy E. (@Freddy_E) January 5, 2013
Missing his girlfriend ...
I can't sleep... and no one to hold, call, or text. This is why I want a Girlfriend...
— Freddy E. (@Freddy_E) January 5, 2013
F*ck my life ...
Fuck... my... life.
— Freddy E. (@Freddy_E) January 5, 2013
It's bad y'all ...
Cruising in the 300 Chrysler. Wishing the world could be a little brighter. But all I can seem to find is this lighter. It's all bad y'all.
— Freddy E. (@Freddy_E) January 5, 2013
Cold gun feels good ...
If there's a God then He's calling me back home. This barrel never felt so good next to my dome. It's cold & I'd rather die than live alone.
— Freddy E. (@Freddy_E) January 5, 2013
The final moments ...
It's... all... bad... y'all. *puts finger around trigger*
— Freddy E. (@Freddy_E) January 5, 2013
I love you Mom.
— Freddy E. (@Freddy_E) January 5, 2013
I love you Dad.
— Freddy E. (@Freddy_E) January 5, 2013
I love you Katherine.
— Freddy E. (@Freddy_E) January 5, 2013
God... please forgive me.
— Freddy E. (@Freddy_E) January 5, 2013
His last tweet ...
I'm sorry.
— Freddy E. (@Freddy_E) January 5, 2013
